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hello.. im currently in uni, trying this wireless internet thing
with my laptop.. alas, my wireless card isn't working, have to use
my friend lira's card.. aahh.. crap! anyway, have a nice
day ppl.. bbL~

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uh oh, almost ambiguous time.. just wanna tell u guys bout a couple of
interesting events that took place today in my small life! =)

01. the bus that i took to uni this morning got into an accident! yea,
i was in it!! =p actually, nothing major, it hit this thing (i haven't the
slightest idea what it's called) on the street and crushed one of its
front lights. cool eh?

02. i baked some chocolate chip cookies, and they tasted real nice!!
got the recipe from the internet, might give u the url later.. i can't
remember rite now =p

yea yea, that's about it! pretty short no? see u later, gotta eat my
instant noodle now.. bbL~

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man.. im having alter-season illnesses.. crap! that's flu, fever,
coughing etc. might as well kill me rite now! ;(

u know, now that im doing this subject called statistics for
life sciences, i'll never look at statistics the same way again..
i HATE them even more! huff!!

totEm: naaah, save it, my mind can't function rite now, can't
think.. got gooey stuff up in my brain! damn this flu..

oh, decided to post this pic, just for the fun of it:


..chicken..

bbL~

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i've never mentioned this before, but i really wanna play in star wars 3!
there was this audition for extras back in june, but i didn't know it until
it was too late! hmph! my cousin and friend seemed to have neglected
telling me.. argh!! i could've been in the same scene as hayden, natalie,
ewan etc. u know! ='( there goes my chance.. buh..

bbL~

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totEm: guilty.. im guilty for failing to blog.. it's just that, everytime i
wanna blog, i can't think of anything else but complaints.. how i long
to go back home, how i can't stand living here, with u-know-who and
u-sorta-know-why.. not so constructive eh? i know.. i hate myself for
that..

guilty.. for not believing in myself that im actually ABLE to pull thru
the situation, the whole uni thing.. i want to believe that im gonna
succeed.. it's just that, if i observe the way i study, i feel extremely
insecure, like im about to fail anytime soon.. and yea, that's right,
i DON'T wanna fail! why can't i just be that regular guy with regular
achievement? i hate feeling like this, insecurity.. like waiting to fall down.
hard. there are times when i feel like i don't deserve this 'gift' thing,
but i guess i should be grateful. i am. it's not that i don't like it,
im just afraid if this means im gonna fall one day. i know everyone
will. am i making any sense at all? God..

--end of totEm--

some refreshing news: today i went to pesta kampoeng, sorta
like this event for indonesian ppl in sydney to celebrate the independence
day. kinda lame. got some nice food though. oh, and live music as well.
cool. i still hate those aussindos though. oh no, more complaints.
gotta shut this mouth.

mum bought 3 pairs of chickens. think she's gonna buy more. these
are living ones im talking about. it's like, the house is off limits for hamsters,
rabbits, cats and dogs, but not for chickens? doH.. she's
lucky i also like chickens! can't wait to see their baby chicks, ooh!! =p

there's this postman bag i wanna buy from FCUK. A$100. should i buy it?
tell me what u think!

bbL~