:pool of thoughts:

BT:JT+4

"God, i have sinned. last night i went to have dinner at this restaurant,
and i ate stuff from the same grill in which pork was cooked, but i
guess U knew it anyway. i tried to reason, that i didn't actually eat the
meat, only some of its oil perhaps.. but what's the difference? i tried
to reason again, that i didn't know they would be cooking pork and
the other stuff in the same grill. i swear to God (that's U, by the way),
had i known i was gonna be taken to such a place, i would've declined
and ate somewhere else instead.. but why did i keep eating once i
knew? i still tried to reason, that my brother was to blame, because he
knew it was gonna be that way, but in all fairness, i was just as guilty
right? i tried yet to reason one more time, that U would be fairly lenient
and merciful when it came to this situation.. wouldn't U? i know what i did
was wrong, but please don't throw me into the flames of Hell.. amen."

totEm: "it's really nice talking to u, u know.. we just click. u're so girlish,
u talk like us, u sing like us, oh and by the way, u CAN sing, most guys
can't.. u listen to songs we listen.. u'll get along very well with ur girlfriend..
what's bossanova jazz? ..see what im trying to say? u even know what
bossanova jazz is! that's very girly of u! ..i only listen to what my brother listens..
what's that u say? im boyish? oh but it's okay for girls to like boys' stuff.."

bbL~

BT:JT+3

ok, today i watched kill bill volume I. what's that, u say?
oh, nothing but one of the COOLEST movies EVER! a must-see! heheh..
it's like, blood everywhere, violence, mutilations!! i've never
been THAT shocked for quite a while.. quentin tarantino's done
a great job!! very refreshing! =p okay, before i start sounding
like a gore freak (which i MIGHT just be, by the way =p), take
a look at kill bill official site.

bbL~

BT:JT+3

fasting: yea, starting monday u won't be seeing me munchin' pies or
gorge myself with chicken dimsims or chips, cuz it's fasting time and
it's gonna be damn fun! ..here, fun means im gonna shed some weight =p

circus: now i kinda hate circuses after watching the news a few days
ago.. i suddenly realized that the animals involved are trained! well,
doH, of course they're trained, but i mean, it's hard enough to train
human, can u imagine how they train the animals? i saw animal abuse
in the news, so horrifying.. they do that just to entertain people?
hitting and slapping the animals.. no wonder the white tiger attacked
roy (sigfried & roy).. the poor thing's probably pissed off.. =|

english: sometimes i feel like expressing myself in this blog using other
languages.. why do i have to stick to english? hhh..

australian idol: u know, it's funny.. whenever i tell my friends that im gonna
audition for next year's oZ idol, they would laugh. they would say things
like, "u can't sing", "yea right", stuff like that.. nasty stuff. now im sorta,
for lack of a better word, triggered, to prove that they're wrong! heheh..
not trying to say im good at singing, it's just that im not as bad as they thought!
i guess~ =p however, i don't think i can audition cuz im not a citizen / PR..

DST: starting tomorrow, it's gonna be daylight saving time again in australia..
blogs will be in BT:JT+4.. hmm.. interesting..

bbL~

BT:JT+3

just watched 17th annual aria awards.. delta goodrem was
super fine!! sporting a short chic hairdo, she.. uh.. is it just
me or do i start to sound like a cheesy reporter? anyway..
yep, delta's done it again!! she nailed 9 out of 10 nominations,
losing only album of the year to powderfinger. darn it!! that
was quite a disapponting finale, but im not complaining.. she
rules!! (now i sound like a cheesy fan.. guilty~)
more on her here.

i have to admit, im guilty for only downloading her music, but
i just can't be bothered to buy the authentic records.. heheh..
maybe for her next album.. go delta! u deserve it! heheh.. =p

non-delta news: i joined fotografer.net on my best friend fred's
recommendation.. photography has been a secret solace for me,
i just never had the opportunity to academically pursue this interest..
long story short, i think this site is a great way to sort of improve my
photography skills.. not much, but enough.. and to channel my ego
needs to be flattered =p kidding.. but so what if im serious?

i miss home..

gotta eat now.. bbL~

BT:JT+3

the other day, a friend of mine called lira wore pink (BRIGHT pink!!)
to uni. people weren't so cool about it, saying it's weird and stuff..
i say u wear what u like, as long as it's decent, that's cool. those people
making awful comments are probably people who aren't daring enough
to be different. i was a victim myself. today i wore things that, to some
people, don't match. someone told me i was like wearing fishing outfit
to uni. whatever. i guess im just stressed out rite now.. gotta finish my essay!

bbL~

BT:JT+3

i regret the way im dealing with my assignments!! i've got an essay
due on friday, and i'm not even half way done!! argh.. ='(
im thinking of skipping classes tomorrow.. hopefully it will be finished
before thursday.. argh, can't think of anything else but going back
home!!

oh yea, talk about home, my exams will be over by 25 nov. however,
im leaving sydney on 02 dec. to this date, it's still undecided whether
im gonna spend some time in singapore or go straight back to jakarta.
can't wait!! heheh.. oh, also, coming up is another month of weight
reduction; it's fasting period again!! this time however, it's gonna be
my first time fasting abroad, they say it's harder cuz the sun won't be
setting until 8 pm or so.. hmm.. wow.. *cross fingers*

totEm: who would u be? someone who's brave enough to wear bold
dresses / outfits, or someone who wouldn't wear anything that might
attract unwanted attention or comments? i've seen people brave enough
to wear clothes that they like, but i also have heard the comments that
other people make about them. to tell u the truth, i've been in both
position, actually. that is, i've been the daring person, but i've also been
the one making awful comments =p

why do i even bother thinking about this at all?

i don't know, bbL~

BT:JT+3

presentation went awkward. i mean, waaaay awkward..
i panicked when my tutor Rob announced i only got 30 seconds left;
there was still 1 long paragraph!! instinctively, i started to talk faster,
and the words started becoming incomprehensible.. =(
and to make matters worse, i said 'shit' in front of his face after the
presentation! it was like:

rob: ..u guys shouldn't be panic if i get up from my seat (cue for 30 secs left)..

ryan: *all of a sudden* shit! ..oops, sorry..

rob: that's alrite, i say it all the time~

ryan: *reddened*

i mean, what the hell was i thinking?? here i was, making bad impression
after my equally awful presentation! but then again, who cares right? heheh..
at least now i don't have to occupy my mind with presentation anymore..
hurray!

o yea, today i learned that i'll be having a chemistry lab test in the near future.
that's like, shit! that's one new stuff to chew on.. argh!!

totEm: talked to mum just now.. she disagreed with the whole braces-dental job
thing.. said that guys need not good set of teeth. huh?? which planet is she
living on? planet 70s?? what is wrong in wanting to look good and
feel good about yourself? im thinking of using my first professional salary to
get myself a dental job.. that will be in, what, 3-4 years? also, will my salary actually
be enough?? huff.. enough talk on this subject!

bbL~

BT:JT+3

o my God.. why did i even bother going to sonystyle.com?
now i crave stuff, incredibly expensive stuff.. =p
i've got it all calculated, and the money i need is US$ 2359.26,
or potentially higher.. care to donate? =)

anyway, today i saw the new package of l'eau par kenzo, very
nice.. heheh.. here are the pictures:



also, tomorrow's my genetics presentation day.. wish me luck!!
it's only worth 5%, but still.. aaaarghhh!! =(

bbL~

BT:JT+3

holiday's almost over, not that i feel sad or anything..
i haven't started working on my essay, not that i'm worried or anything..
i'm gonna have my 1st movie marathon experience tomorrow, not that i'm that excited or anything..
i'm so terrified by moths, not that i wrote a short essay on them or anything.. (actually, i DID!!)
i really want this perfume called l'eau par kenzo for men, not that it smells real good or anything.. (it DOES!!)
i'd die for a dental job for my higgledy-piggledy excuse for a set of teeth, not that i'd die for it or anything..

..wait, i would die for it.


this is the stuff, THE stuff!

bbL~