:pool of thoughts:

right now im staying in my villa in kota bunga, puncak, west java. it's really nice
cuz i've been very productive; my site's goin' really well! =p heheh.. oyea, i've also
received my session 2 results, and boy do they suck! only 2 HD, plus 2 DN. well i guess
that's a bloody good result, but.. heheh.. won't talk anymore, enough of that!!

last nite played 'big 2' until 3ish, and tonight gonna have bbQ and prolly more 'big 2'.. yay!! =p

still mourning over the loss of my pics in free-host.com.. i think that darned thing has
been shut down without notice.. aaargh!! i lost around 9 pics, all of which are crucial
parts of this blog.. boohoo.. damn those free webspace providers!! hmm.. maybe i should
get my own domain, say ryandleon.com? heheh.. =p

okie okie, gotta go now.. take care ppl.. bbL~

im freakin out rite now.. exam results are coming in a couple of days!
the thought of getting ridiculous marks especially for biotech and
genetics scares the shit out of me; i mean, if i get lousy marks for what
im majoring in, doesn't that mean im not meant for them? even if i can
keep up with the marks later on, will i be able to survive my working
years? ooh, this is so stressful!! =(

btw, fixed the tagboard.. it's lookin' really fine now! =)

totEm: i've been thinking lately.. i have this tendency to sorta "agree"
to what ppl say.. although i actually don't necessarily agree. u do know
what i mean right? it's like, i prefer keeping my thoughts inside to avoid
arguments.. i know that in most cases, it's not advisable to do such a
thing, but then again it's my nature and i can't do anything about it..
oh well.. it's probably a good idea to have a weblog cuz then u could
write stuff that u can't express in real life.. hmm.. that's interesting..

okay, i'll leave u for tonight, very sleepy right now.. bbL~

added tag board so u guys can comment on my entries.. =p
can anyone tell me how to align that board to the right..?
been tryin' in vain here.. ='(

oh, well.. bbL~

yes, there is no "BT:JT+anything" this time, i AM in jakarta! woohoo..

sadly, i have received my provisional (it usually remains unchanged,
so consider that final) mark for maths. 83. that's 2 fuckin' points away
from HD [High Distinction]. well.. truth is, i should be thankful, and i
am, believe me. it's just that.. i kinda, sorta wish it'd be another straight
HDs this time around.. wishful thinking eh? i actually think it's better
this way cuz it's a reality check for me. things don't always magically
go my way, i have to work to achieve it. yea, that's mostly why life
sucks. and sadly, this was the only subject which exam i considered
pretty easy; the others were definitely harder. so does this mean..
no, no negative thinking allowed here! argh.. proceed to dream review!

i wanna review some of my most exciting and weird dreams which took
place around 2-3 weeks ago (yea i know, they're ancient). without any
further ado, here goes:

01. the one where i got 5 kids
it's basically a story of me having 5 children. im pretty sure this was induced
by my talking to my mates that i wanna have 10 kids before i hit 35. i really
do, cuz i think a big family's a lot of fun. besides, i like kids. oh, but this is only
if i'm rich enough. anyway.. it started with me holding this baby, my very own =p
i think he was trying to poo in his diapers or sumthin'.. then i left him on a table
and went to see my wife and other kids. wife: her name was mrs. mai (future japanese
wife? hm.. can't remember if she was kawaii or butt ugly though). kids: most of the other
ones were "big", like, "fat", u know.. and i think one or two of them had blonde
hair and blue eyes (cool eh? not..) apparently, the baby boy was sick and my
wife was trying to call the family doctor (i was rich, yay!). i remember the doctor
telling us that he suffered from this only-exists-in-my-dream disease called
"corona midlin". when i went back to the baby, his eyes were shining or something
like that.. not a good thing. oh well, at least i think that's what was in my dream..

02. the one where he could never die
oh this one's pretty scary.. it's one of those typical run-away-as-fast-u-can-but-
he'll-never-be-too-far-away-anyway type of dreams. it was set in my old house,
which has always been my set for this type of scary dreams (i wonder.. is it because
it's so damn hard to run away from killers and demons in that house?). well anyway,
i was in the 5th floor and was chased by this psycho. i was freakin out. i ran as
fast as i could downstairs and met my aunt in the 2nd floor. she was about to
help me get rid of the killer when he suddenly shapeshifted into my uncle, her husband
(u know how people suddenly change in your dreams right?). he explained to her
why he wanted so bad to kill people and as u might've guessed correctly, she
aborted her plans to help me kill him. i was like, oh shit. i ran to the 1st floor and started
throwing anything i could find at him. knives, screwdrivers, sharp 'n scary stuff, but
all those stuff would miss. it was so damn scary i think i woke up drenched in my
own sweat.. but it was a good adrenaline rush =)

03. the one where i held his head and kissed him
now this must be the result of watching too much 'queer as folk'. what's that?
it's a tv show about the lives of gay and lesbian people. the story of the drama
is actually rather interesting to watch, but i advise people not to watch it too much.
otherwise this might occur in ur dream: the scene opened with me walking out
of a bedroom, still in my damned old house, behind this guy called michael novotny
(the character from queer as folk played by hal sparks). i was being all gay and
flirtatious (yea, i know..). i asked him, "are u fasting as well?" and he said something
like "yea". we then sat in this living room with some other friends and started
laughing and shit. suddenly i.. wait, let me put it this way--

me: was i drunk last night?
michael: yea
me: did we.. do it?
michael: yea
me: so i committed two sins, i was drunk and i had gay sex???
michael: yea
me: aaAA!!

but then the weirdest thing..

me: (holds michael's head) it's all gonna be all right.. (kisses michael's forehead)
both: (smiling)

woke up drenched in sweat again.. fuck!

04. the one where an old game sprung back to life
fun fun fun! this one's about my old time favourite RPG, final fantasy 3! of
course, i was one of the heroes in it, and we were in the final boss' castle.
we were riding these robot-like machines.. can't remember what they're called..
something like magitek robot.. anyway, yea, it was really fun! the group
was divided into 3 smaller groups, much like in the game. i couldn't remember
all the details but i remember riding elevators and stuff.. nice dream. =)
i just love final fantasy 3.

05. the one where the concert just went wrong
i attended one of westlife's concerts in this dream. who's westlife? the coolest
boyband on earth. yea, i like them, so what? =) im quite proud of it cuz i don't
think there's anything wrong with enjoying good music.. true? =)
anyway, this one was a bit strange though.. there were actually female members
in westlife, and i remembered the concert not being too good.. plus,
there were my ex-killer uncle and ex-killer's-accomplice aunt and their daughter.
talk about spooky! i like them in real life though =)

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ha.. i've actually done this dream review! yay!! time to hit the sack now..
so sleepy.. oyea, today went out with my old buddies.. so happy =)
i'll write about them in my next entry.. won't be long, i promise! =p

oyea, working on my website rite now.. coming soon!! i'll post the link
later okay? bbL~